SURRENDER YOUR INNER STRUGGLE AND EMBRACE A LIFE OF BEWILDERMENT

Alex provides personalized guidance and support to help individuals surrender the tendencies of the struggling self and embrace a life of not knowing.

In 2018, after enduring a decade of intense suffering—without following any spiritual path, or even considering himself spiritual—Alex spontaneously awakened from the illusion of separation and realized the oneness of everything.

Over the next year, he experienced many mystical experience until a second awakening, in which he surrendered his battle with suffering and awakened to unconditional love. That love has remained with him ever since, and the intense suffering never returned.

Still, after all this, there remained a sense that the final goal of lasting peace had not been reached. Years passed in pursuit of it, until he finally recognized its impossibility and chose instead to embrace a life of not knowing.

Now, Alex shares his understanding with those ready to surrender their inner struggle, and embrace the freedom of not knowing. A life lived from bewilderment.

Sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment.

- Rumi

If you ask me how to live with bewilderment — which is how to live from not knowing — then I cannot tell you.
I too do not know.
And I welcome you to surrender to the fact that you, as I, do not know how.

So much of our energy and struggle is directed toward trying to figure out how to live a life of permanent inner peace. Even the best answers and poems from the great masters do not seem to provide a final answer for us.

The same goes for awakenings, recognizing our true nature, mystical experiences, insights, and moments of great clarity. They may bring us a lot, but in the end, we still feel like we are not “there” yet.

Is there a final solution?
I don’t know.

But the closest I can ever seem to get is failure and bewilderment. I see that my attempts to claw myself out of this pit of not knowing only take me further away from Peace.

So it seems impossible to reach it, and all our attempts to reach it only take us further away.

This leaves us with only two choices:
to embrace the fact that we do not know how,
or to keep clawing ourselves toward an answer we are convinced is out there somewhere.

If you choose the latter, I can only wish you the best.

-Alex